MINER

It’s more like happily never after. I know you would love to hear my story. Too bad there is no story;just solitude,all because my love could not love. Not just not love,but could not love me. This is intrinsic:The inside of me speaking. I would clamour for your heart but it would be null. Just whimpers of a nipper,or a nitwit if you may.

Oh dear heart,do you have to mosey to all the forbidden zones? Do you have to act like an oaf? Or maybe it was you. Your imagined eminent self. Your aloof self coated with avaricity. Your evasive self. All the negativity yet I was foolishly attracted to you like a novice positive charge. I chortle every time I recall what a big fool I was. Foolish enough to be chivvied into your unwilling heart,a herald of my peril.

You obfuscated my life now I can’t even recognise my own heartbeat,and to think you would serenede me with your heartbeat. Oh-so dumb. Once bitten,twice shy but my pliant heart begged for another try. Is this my perdition for being so stubborn? I vividly remember the day you walked away. I literally heard my heart shatter into pieces. You left me beleaguered. It seemed to be the perfect time for everything in this world to excoriate me;even the eyes on my own face.

Am I not woman enough for you? Was it your aim to leave me in rue? I thought we were too good to be true. It would be easy to clear you from the picture but my heart and soul demur simply because you enigmatically perused your way to the depths of me. Look at me now. A mundane mine.

ALL YOU


I’m an open book:I let you write in me. I’m the deepest ocean:I let you dive in me. I let you swim with my vulnerable heart;with the currents and the blues.

I thought you were the one for me…that we would last forever but…thoughts only exist in the mind and I was just a paraphernalia of your paramount quest for supremacy. You intrigued me only to leave me piqued…a recluse. The inflection in your voice when you told me you wanted some kind of forever with me. The ardour in your eyes when you held mine. Ardent in every single syllable that emanated from those lips. Those insatiable lips.Oh boy!

I speak with incandescence not because of what you did,but because of what I failed to do. Failing to figure out your devious aim yet it was clear just before me. You know ,I used to wonder why I would never grasp the concept of reciprocals in my maths class only to find out that you were the cause simply because you did not reciprocate my love. I detested myself for always botching things up,for being the bane of my existence, but it was all you.

All you ever cared about was yourself. I did a grave mistake to kowtow you because it only increased your uppity giving you apt reason to take me for granted. All the lies besmirched love in my life. You killed me inside leaving me empty,fit to live among the living dead: Somebody please resuscitate me. And when I had had enough I asked you to tell me one more lie;just one more lie and all descended when you said…”I love you”.